Wow - you really did change your life. You made a clean break with what you have been doing up until now. You may have fought various battles, personal or in times of trouble, that left you feeling empty and scarred. You spent much time on your own and isolated.The past was stressful with many financial problems and you lost your religion or faith. You pulled yourself out of a hole - Severed the past and started anew.
I'm seeing the army or military somewhere here - either yourself or family. Someone who is a stickler for rules and doing his duty. I see a man who wears his uniform proudly.
I feel you risked somethig for love -an intense and passionate liaison. There are 3 people in the picture.One of the people appears to be sad and crying. They may feel they have been betrayed but the relationship had run its course.
You've realised that your future lies in being more open to others if you are to feel fulfilled at the end of your life. You've changed your physical appearance too -brighter clothes, a new style. New city?
I feel this was the right decision - though not an easy one. It will take a few years before you reap the rewards. Putting in the hard work now but will take time before you reap the harvest. You are putting roots- new roots and your new life must be built brick by brick.
You're the winner in the final outcome.