I feel like I’m diving in an ocean of uncertain thoughts at this time ..and losing a lot of energy in this trance ..Getting up, doing my tasks and daily projects seem to take such big efforts. Definitely I’m not on the thrive right now. Missing someone so bad .. it hurts.
Amazingly when I have signs from him is like a ray of sunshine brightening my day and I feel recharged, enthusiastic, smiles come back, my mood improves, I feel like another person!
One part of me does like that a lot .. but the other part it’s a little disappointed..
At this point of my life I should be able to know how to cheer myself up and feel content without needing anyone’s attention. I know I have some homework to do in that area for myself.
One day a while ago when we opened our hearts and talked about what we feel for one another, he said he has brought me to his mind so many times .. he was almost embarrased to confess.. I felt so good to know that !.. as I have done the same.
Thats why I am intriguing about the silence and apparently ignoring attitude from him in the past few months from now
I always trust my first feeling. I have had previous confirmations on how my intuition has been very precise. But sometimes the accuracy stomps a little bit .. lol..
especially if I’m filling my mind with too many different scenarios.
So.. would you please give me your inputs?..your “firsts”? would u be able to read what’s going on in my situation? what’s going on..?
My first thoughts are..
1. There is something about his life that he doesn’t want people to know.. he is struggling. Possibly related to his current relationship, but also could be work related.
2. He loves the good understanding and empathetic communication we have but since we have been distant lately he might be afraid of my reaction.. as if I’m going to be upset or something .. not sure but I think he is hesitant.
3. Melancholy is striking.He told me once, this beats him oftentimes. He has tendency of getting depressed. There’s also some emptiness feelings.
4 . In a more uplifting thought. Every thing might be doing just fine but monotonous.He might be overload with work or other demands.
I would like to send a picture for a reading. But how can this be done in a more private way?
Thanks for reading!! your responses are very appreciated!
Take care everyone